So Yesterday early morning I looked out over my back yard and notice a plume of smoke coming from the opposite side of a building across the alley way. The Lincoln Theatre is right next to this building and has been under construction so I assumed that there was a dumpster that construction debris was being dumped into creating a plume of dust, so I left it at that. An hour later I look out across the back yard again and there are two fire trucks and an ambulance parked around the house. Apparently there had been a fire. "Not again" I thought.
This wasn't the first time I had dismissed a fire. This past winter I smelled the distinct scent of burning wood. "Huh... One of the neighbors must have their fireplace going". Only later do I realize that another house across the alley way is entirely engulfed in flames. No one lived there, it had been repossessed by the city and the only purpose it served in the past year was a drunk and crack head hangout that occasionally doubled as a meeting place for cheap prostitutes and their tricks. But still I was sad that it was burning down. When the firefighter finally got to the house all they could do was contain the flames, not extinguish them.
Anyway what I was getting at... I want to be a more caring person, more concerned about things. I tend to do alot of assuming . I assume that because I saw no flames lashing out of the windows yesterday that the fire across the alleyway was relatively minor, but that's an assumption, I haven't actually reached out to anyone on my street, let alone across the alley. When I leave no one is going to miss me and most won't even remember that I'd lived here. I want to leave a legacy. When you think about it everyone leaves a legacy. Whether or not you realize it your actions affect other in ways so minuscule and so grand that its unfathomable. Just think about all of the people you come in contact with during the week, whether it be a cashier or someone you ask for the time. Sometimes I think about how I got in a situation and how it may have been averted if I had changed one decision or action in the past. Kind of like in "It's a Wonderful Life" when George Bailey sees how the world would be worse off with out him. Only I doubt that his brother would have drowned. What other reason would he have gone down to the frozen lake if it wasn't to play with his older brother? (Had George been alive he would have saved his younger brother when the ice gave way) His younger brother wouldn't have been anywhere near that lake. Anyway... sometimes I give myself headaches when I think about these things.
Saturday, June 28, 2008
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